Why do I do this to myself??? Why?! I always find myself in a situation where I care for someone so much, but they always take it for granted. They just brush me off. -________- When will I ever be someone's everything? When will someone actually WANT to spend time with me? Just me alone. I'm fucking ready to settle! I've been ready. I need something to keep me from going in the direction I see myself heading in. I need someone to love me. Someone that genuinely loves me! This is hurting me to no end. It hurts!

I'm a wreck. A fucking wreck. I don't know what to do. I can only cry, and hope for things to get better. I feel that there's nothing that I could possibly say to make things better. No one's gonna listen to me; they'll only hear me. I need someone to listen.  Someone to talk to.

Maybe it's time to break off some attachments. End some friendships? Burn some bridges? Build new ones? I think so. Time for me to enjoy life. Meet new people. Most of the people who are already here in my life are toxic. I need to breathe fresh air!

I'm driving myself crazy again. Why?